Hi Boogie San Jose, I have asked myself that question for decades, but finally found peace with being me. I have friends who managed to live that perfect peaceful life, and they turned out frustrated, aging before their time, people who do nothing, been nowhere, and just talk about a small town and eating in the same places day after day. Maybe the most boring people I have ever met. Celebrate your life Boogie, it is what has made you you. And thank you so much for the thoughtful note. Thom